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Post by ``Mickey. on Feb 23, 2008 21:01:11 GMT -5
When the snake finally slithered away slowly she closed her eyes tightly. Once the numbing died away the pain rolled in. The tears that burned her eyes were forced back, crying would have to stop. Sadly she needed to tell Zeke something, but she couldn't bring up the courage. It would hurt her and him, yet she knew it would hurt him more...
"Zeke... I-I think we need to take a break... From e-each other..." All the love made her angry with herself, all the pain made her feel stupid. The tears she forced back streamed down her cheeks.
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Post by |D| e a n s t e r on Feb 23, 2008 21:06:10 GMT -5
Zeke stopped, and looked at her dumbfounded. At first he wasn't sure he herd her correctly, but when he saw the tears role down her face, he knew he herd right. His eyes clouded even more as they turned almost black. He looked into her eyes, a misundering look on his face.
"What.....?" He looked at her, an almoost pleading look in his eyes. He wished she would just take it back. That she had been mistaken. She wasn't thinking clearly. They were fine. Right? What did he do? What did he not do? So many questions buzzed in his head, one of all poking out more than all the oters. Did she not love him anymore...?
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Post by ``Mickey. on Feb 23, 2008 21:14:21 GMT -5
With her arms she hugged him tightly before kissing him one last time. The words seemed to be stuck in her throat. "I just feel sufficated, and some times ignored... I just need some alone time, don't think I don't love you, I do, but I feel a little worthless..." Catching her breath she stood to her feet, ignoring the pain as it faded. If he wanted her bad enough he would hopefully show it.
Even though she spoke the words it was hard for her to understand. She loved him so much, but either getting too much, or not enough... Sometimes she thought the relationship was moving too slow, but other times too fast.
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Post by |D| e a n s t e r on Feb 23, 2008 21:23:57 GMT -5
He didn't know what to say. He was slightl cunfused. She feltsufficated and ignored? How could he manage to do that? A lump formed in his throat as he thought of something to say. "Misery, I'm sorry. I canwork on that, I swear. I won't sufficate you anymore, I will let you be a free bird. In dong that, I will make sure to never ignore you, You will always be the first thing in my mind. the first thing I consider. Please Misery... Just don't go..." He hoped it was a good speech. it was good i his mind, and it ws truely how he felt, he just hoped that Misery saw it to, saw in him how he wuld change for her. Everything was fr her. She just couldn't leave him like this, even if it just was a alittle break up, he didn't think he could last without her.
Sorrow filled eyes looked into Misery's face once more. The hole were his heart had once been ached to badly. "Please..." His voice was at a whisper this time. He almost felt like plain out begging her not to leave, but he would stoop that low, atleast not yet...
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Post by ``Mickey. on Feb 23, 2008 21:33:44 GMT -5
She tried to ignore his pleas, but it overwhelmed her. Nothing was right anymore and was she the only one that noticed. "I'll still be with you, but technically only as a friend. I would never leave you for good, silly." A small smile cracked her lips that were just quivering. Of course she felt the pain too, just not as strong as Zeke felt it... This reminder her of when they first met, and he told her it wouldn't work.
Her small hand was held out to help him up from the ground. Now it would be hard to be just friends, nothing more, but it wasn't permanent unless he found someone else. If someone else managed to snatch him the pain would be unbearable.
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Post by |D| e a n s t e r on Feb 23, 2008 21:42:02 GMT -5
He took his small hand in hs and pulled himself to his feet. He swallowed har as he looked down at her. Her words didn't help him at all. He was still crushed. He wanted to just close hi eyes and walk away, but didn't. Something held him there. The same thing that did't want to let her go. Love.
His fingers opened and he dropped her hand, his own arm dropping to his side. He closed his eyes for a moment. Only friend? Did that mean he could not hold her i his arms anymore, or kiss her on the cheek? Did it mean he would have to hold himself back when ever he longed to touch her, or tell her how beautiful she looked? He sighed, and reopned his eyes. Slowly he looked back up into herface, but he just couldn't look into her eyes. He would get lost in them, and he pain would just grow.
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Post by ``Mickey. on Feb 23, 2008 21:50:31 GMT -5
She could tell he was suffering from the pain. Her words didn't help him, or herself. Looked like both of them were only pathetic creatures without each others, right? Did that mean she just gave up something so dear to her? That if she wanted to hold his hand it wouldn't feel right? Or maybe that even talking to him would feel different? Only friends... That word seemed to be the cause of her messed up life, yet it didn't matter anymore.
"Sulking isn't gonna help... If you miss me already then try to do something to cheer ya up. Just don't walk around like a sad zombie..." Now she was worried that she effected his life too much. It scared her to see him in such a deppressed stage.
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Post by |D| e a n s t e r on Feb 23, 2008 21:59:18 GMT -5
Cheer up? Ha, like that was ever going to happen. He just shook his head. He didn't understand how she seemed so fine like this, so fine with just dumping him like she did. He closed his eyes again and tilted his head back. When he opened his eyes back up they were fixed on the moon. The waning cresent hung in the sky. He half expected it to just fall from the sky. Why not? Everything else seemed to end in a disaster.
You could say that Zeke was over reacting. It wasn't like they were being seperated for ever, or she was with another man or anything, she just wanted a break. But to Zeke, it almost felt as though she was cheating on him. That she wanted to break apart to find someone else, like she was testing him or somethng. To see hoe other men acted, to see wat they did. Then she would just simply pick, like drawing a slip of paper from a hat. Or, atleast that was how he took it. She was his first true love. Sure he had had a few crushes, but nothing as serious as this.
His hands crammed into his pockets as his gaze dropped all the wy down to his shoes. He just stared at them as if they were going to just leave to.
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Post by ``Mickey. on Feb 23, 2008 22:08:41 GMT -5
Swiftly she wrapped her arms around herself. This didn't turn out as well as she expected... "Now you won't talk or look at me, how deppressing..." Now she yanked at his arm, trying to hold his hand tightly, and looked up at his face. She didn't want him to think she was gonna just leave him behind, impossible! "Nothing is real 'til it's gone..."
She wondered if she should keep trying to hold his hand, if it irritated him. When she glanced up at the sky she watched the stars. They were the same, but for some reason they seemed less bright.
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Post by |D| e a n s t e r on Feb 23, 2008 22:17:32 GMT -5
Zeke shook his head and pulled away from her. His hands stayed crammed in his pockets and he finally looked back into her face. "I still just don't understand. You were fine. You say you still love me. Yet, you want to break away. Why? What did I do to make you feel worthless? Huh? I gave you everthing you wanted. Sure that first day we met was kind of hectic, but we got through that didn't we? So what is so bad right now that we could not get through?"
Now he wasn't just sad, but there was angry in him to. Nothin's real 'till its gone. Pst. If it is gone, then how is it real? Nothin can be real if it didn't exist. It was like how people didn't beilv in unicorns or fairies. So was she sayin for a unicorn to be real it must first be extinct? He just sighed and looked at her.
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Post by ``Mickey. on Feb 23, 2008 22:24:47 GMT -5
Misery sighed deeply and backed away. "You're acting like a child! I'm sorry, but I just can't believe you right now! Forget I was ever nice to you, it just made you act stupid." Now she stomped off in pure anger, and her heart broken. All she had to do was get out of this stupid place alive, and she would be free.
As she walked it was hard to stop thinking about Zeke. The way he acted just seemed to make her explode. If this was what trying to be nice after a small break up was like, then he can be alone!
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Post by |D| e a n s t e r on Feb 23, 2008 22:32:27 GMT -5
He was acting like a child? She wa the one who turned around and stomped away like a little girl that didn't get her pony.He just shook his head angrly. If she wanted to act like that, fine, whatever. If she wanted to break up, fine. He could deal with that now. He didn't care anymore. As he truely thoght aout what all she did to him, this was good for him.
He turned around, and headed in the opposite direction she went. This time he wasn't going to chase after her, not this time. He was going to go home. Go talk to his sister, catch up on the times. He would just forget about Misery for the night. But he knew it would be hard, for her picture was already branded in his head.
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Post by ``Mickey. on Feb 23, 2008 22:38:42 GMT -5
"Who needs him... I do...." Now she knew life would be so much harder. When she pulled up her arm she looked at all the scars. Today was just one of those days, and to hopefully finish it she bit into her arm. She ignored how hard she bit down, and just continued to suck. If she made it past this night she would be lucky...
Soon she felt dizzy like the world was spinning before her. Slowly she fell to the ground with colsed eyes. Yes she was stupid enough to do this, yet this time she might have taken it too far.
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Post by |D| e a n s t e r on Feb 26, 2008 17:08:05 GMT -5
A grumble came from Zeke has he walked through the night. This day had been just fine until Misery had come along. He just wanted to stop thinking about her for the time being. But he knew that it wasn't going to work. He couldn't get her out of his head.
He thought back to the day they had met. That day was so tragic, yet so happy. They wen't through so much. So, so much. He ws just glad this was a temperary set up. He didn't think he could go that long without seeing her. Seeing her dark hair, her pale skin, her small hands, her eyes... He just loved everything about her. They had been through some of the roughest stuff. Her being depressed, not having enough blood, him letting his demon take over him, attack her, her trying to kill herself.... Her trying to kill herself!
Zeke suddenly stopped. He slowly turned around, looking out into the shadows. Surely she wasn't that upset to bite herself again. He remembered how she stormed off and the look in her eyes. A pian went through him. If she was biting herself, he would have to stop hr. But what if she wasn't? What if he just ran up to her to see her fine. What then? What would she think?
Those last few seconds are what held him there. Two voices creaming in his mind. One yelling to go after her, the other just saying just to forget about her.
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Post by ``Mickey. on Feb 26, 2008 17:16:09 GMT -5
Misery let go of her death grip on her wrist. It hurt too much to even go on with the process. If she never got to see Zeke again that would kill her. All of that trouble to stay with him flashed through her mind. Would he come back to her? She always went crawling back to him, no matter what. Then again she always started the fights, she was the problem that he had to deal with.
She decided to lay on her back to look at the sky. It was dark, and dotted with pale stars. If only she wasn't alone... It was hard enough to start a fight every ten seconds, but at least he was still there.
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